So I have not been on here in a while. And of course the reason why is because I started to heal and improve mentally which meant I didnt need to lean on blogging as much (pretty much not at all) to get everything off my chest.
Long story short I learned how to be more mindfull of myself in relation to certain situations, and how to never underestimate the need of consuming my daily vitamins. I think I was missing vitamins as a key element in getting back to being mentally strong enough to tackle everyday stress and even surprise stressers.
I have recently picked up a new hobby involving reborns; for those of you who don’t know what that is, they are hand made baby dolls ranging in age from premie to todler.
To be honest if it wasn’t for the “cookies” that each click leaves I would’nt have ever come across this popular niche hobby.
This is Alejandro Denise Crespo! He is a newborn and the second reborn that I had fallen in love with.
The first one was a girl who had a price tag I just couldn’t come up with then and there. Next thing I know she’s gone, BUT not too long after that I came across this little cutie. I placed a bid, and waited.l; then after a short lived bid war I snipped him at the last second.
BOOM HE WAS MINE. He was shipped and 5 days after huricane Harvey hit he was delivered and I did a quick box opening.
I absolutely love Alejandro and just having him next to me beings a comforting calm to me. Especially when looking at that smiling face.
I hope that I can make this into a more perminant hobby because having a hobby is the last thing on my check list to falling into place as an adult.
FaceBook page: Texas Reborn Mommy Hobby
I was on snapchat the other day (i should mention snapchat tries to include tidbits of actually informative segments that bring an open mind back down to earth) and i saw this. I thought it was hilarious considering if you’re over 18 you are no longer eligible for government general health assistance;and with that said if you arent lucky enough to be on your parents health plan you dont have insurance of any kind.
Being apart of the ever growing but never improving poor class does’nt allow for easy access to health care unless we as newly named “adults” work full time jobs that even provide health care insurance right out of highschool.
Many of us are in what is called the insurance gap (no, not GAP insurance):
Adults between the age of 18-26 who are unable to get insurance because they are too young to have a job that is able to provide a coverage option but too old to get free assistance from the government (medicare… ect.)
Dont get me wrong there are still ways around this but if your parents didnt have to struggle enough to figure out what can be done or never bothered to let you know then you probably dont know how you can get assistance for a dental check up here and there or that much needed physical.
They dont make well known our options as unfortunate citizens of this odd-ball society we live in what can be done for out basic needs for dental and health.
Here are a few links I hope will find there way to helping more than a few people:
Benefits by State:
Rent Assistance Programs:
I reside in Texas so if there are any unfortunate people from Texas reading this I suggest getting the Gold Card; its like an insurance card you can use anywhere it is accepted.
(My step mother in law has used it to go to a psychiatrist; just so you know how far it could go for you if you choose to pursue)
+Heavy drinkers during family events
+Living just above the poverty line
+Father took an indefinite vacation away
+Sibling share a different father who also just so happens to be missing
These are just a few of the topical must have’s when concidering what makes you apart of that stereo typical portion of society.
I had no clue how bad things were between my family and I untill we were faced with living below the poverty line for a second time in a 3 year span. My mother distanced herself so much i can’t sleep with my back facing her way without feeling like she’ll try to hurt me.
Hm… Could be that innate fear black parents like to instill in their children to control them surffacing or something entirely new… Who knows.
And my little brother (13) is acting like he is of the proper age to do what ever when ever. After a year of him indulging in the activities of a 17 year old he finally experienced something that reset his attitude a little. He found himself on a richer part of town (white part of town) after taking the wrong bus, which happened to be his first time riding the bus.
Needless to say with his knowlage of what happens to boys his age and appearance, he stopped running up and down the streets like he was born there.
Why me? Why us? Why the lies that we were anything other than the typical underprivileged “African American” family.
I got a tattoo of a lotus flower because i feel like one, i am one. A beautiful thing grown from an ugly and sterile environment.
So I was surfing the web and came across this photo. I think it speaks volumes about how expensive things are these days, and how comparably we have so much less opportunity for OWNING and EXPERIENCING certain things than the older generations did.
It May not be a completely accurate representation of how much things were back in the day but we all know inflation is a bitch right now.
Don’t any of you think there is something wrong when a meal from a fast food place can cost as much as an hours wage from an entry level job? For me that raises a huge red flag.
It SHOULD NOT be this way.
Entry level jobs are suposed to help us get on our feet while we may or may not pursue bigger things but, HA! It really doesn’t. Especially since the job market is so finiky and teeters this way and that you’ll be hard pressed to grow from there or get any where else.
I have been working two jobs for nearing a year now and I honestly have nothing to show for it. Its really only suporting my car,gas and food. But what about a nice cheap aparment? No inflation has fucked that up as well.
When you can’t get a cheap apartment in even the questionable side of town without having to room with 2 or more people it should raise another red flag.
It shouldn’t be a requirement to bunk with other people Especially if you still work two jobs.
We millennials literally have to stay at home longer or work so much harder to start nesting and move away from home. I paused school so I can make sure I don’t have an excuse to work only 1 job and I fucking hate it.
I MISS SCHOOL GUYS I seriously do! But with me being 22 and no where near flying the nest I AM FORCED TO!
How long will they keep inflating the cost of everything untill they stop. Probably when the working class is too poor to even afford their latest goddamn phone or TV.
Anyway Fuck life. Fuck inflation. Fuck minim wage. Fuck it all man.
1. I’m here to express and get some shit off my chest (who isn’t).
2. I hope that yet another blogging millennial talking about today’s bullshit mixed with economic social trials and tribulations will cause SOMETHING exponentially benifical to happen for us and the next generation.
3… Well… I’m not entirely sure at this point.