“NO MATTER HOW YOU FEEL, GET UP, SHOW UP AND DON’T GIVE UP”
What I am most greatful for today:
I was caught between delving a bit deeper or keeping it short and simple.
It took me over 12 hours but I decided to keep it simple as I’m not yet ready to express my inner most thoughts.
I am most greatful for going through having to end a pregnancy 4 weeks,
I know thats weird and you may be feeling a number of emotions towards that but it’s true.
I realized just how much I wanted/need a baby and its motivated my wonderful boyfriend to try even harder to get a job that can not only sustain us but give him leway to promote him self when needed so he can be apart in the act of create a little us.
And lastly I would not have found out just how malnurished i was AND i wouldnt be taking birthcontrol that has has had the side affect of stabalizing hormones.
Through heart break and greif I am healthy again, I am able to continue working hard to finally get that leg up in my socioeconomic status. I am doing this for me and my future(s).
Side note: i started this blog to get the BS off my chest but ALSO reach out to a number of people and or groups. We are all in this together as millennials, middle class,above and below we are on the same level of Gen-y specific brutalities.
What i am greatful today:
Is that i am able to sleep in my car @ a reasonably safe spot and most of all that safe space is in the front of my boyfriends town home.
Now you might be wondering why am i sleeping outside? Why not in his house? Thats because they have a bigger issue than just not having enough room. He has to share a room with his brother and his house has a pretty simple setup, its too small.
But its okay. Im just happy that i can finally get some uninterrupted sleep.
We all need really good sleep during these tough times right? Its the only thing that seems to not cost an arm and a leg as a millennial.
i wonder if this will be more common among the Gen-y’ers who are lucky enough to even have a car.
what I am most greatful for today
i guess it would be my car. I decided to try and sleep in my car as often as i need instead because of my living situation.
I am finally on the road to recovery and in order to continue being mindful of my mental health i need to find quality rest or else ill be back in the same spot at i was earlier this year.
Sleep, next to food is probably the most important element to healthy living. Don’t cha think?
Side note: I think its interesting to see an increased population of people (especially women) who live or have lived in their cars. Its a little disheartening to recognize this as a growing issue in the millennial community.
What I am greatful for 30 day Challenge:
Day 2: Today I am greatful for my two jobs.
Ill go ahead and start off with what i hate doing but helps more than it hurts me.
I am glad that bi weekly i get 2 paychecks, these jobs are building me to learn discipline and the skill that will be nessesary when i pursure being an assistant manager.
You have to learn to love even the most annoying things because it could still be very beneficial for you to deal with them.
In short i will start off this challenge with something simple: I am greatful for the opportunity to create this challenge, i have been going back and forth with my emotions about my current life situation and realize time and time again that i need to get out of my head and focus on the little stupid things in life that make me happy again.
here is the 30 minute podcast link http://castbox.fm/u/218533.
In this podcast it was explained that humans have the tendancy to focus on negative things in their lives. Even if they might be small insignificant things humans for some reason cant stop turning it into something huge. It was also said that in an experiment when “this” many people were told to write out what they are greatful for each day for “said” amount of time, it was recorded that they had increased leveles of happinessby the end of the experiement.
They also stated that even when someone has a great bounce back and it happy they soon get used to that boost in life and revert back to thinking about all that might be going wrong with their lives.
I am guilty. With that said, for the next month I am going to come up with 30 individual “things” I feel to be greatful for.
This Challenge will end July 3rd.
1- I will be sooooo strong after this.
2- I will have gained the experience of
26 year old by the time I am able to grasp my place in life.
3- I HAVE a boyfriend of 4 freaking years! Most my age can’t keep a significant other for more than 6 months! Let alone be with their perfect match.
4- I HAVE wonderful friends, a few but quality over quantity!
5- I’ll be able to pass down my knowledge and wisdom to my kids. I will be the most wonderful mother because I know what it’s like to not have one. And they will have a father that is active and present.
6- My generation of millennials may struggle but it won’t be all for not. The asshole higher ups will get what’s coming to them when we fail and they start failing.
Adulthood seems to be so fucking bazaar to say the least.
They push you out of high school saying that you are now an adult BUT here is a 4 million page book on all the rules and regulations we have set out for you.
In reality I am an adult doing what needs to be done. But in reality I am a child that seems to be flopping around aimlessly.
It really pisses me off, because on top of being a female who is short and has a small voice, they still don’t see me as an adult because of my age. I’m a tiny 22 year old woman. No one is going to take me seriously.
“You’re an adult and can do what you please BUT not untill you conform to these rules and regulations.”
Fucking great. Being an adult is wonderful.
So I was surfing the web and came across this photo. I think it speaks volumes about how expensive things are these days, and how comparably we have so much less opportunity for OWNING and EXPERIENCING certain things than the older generations did.
It May not be a completely accurate representation of how much things were back in the day but we all know inflation is a bitch right now.
Don’t any of you think there is something wrong when a meal from a fast food place can cost as much as an hours wage from an entry level job? For me that raises a huge red flag.
It SHOULD NOT be this way.
Entry level jobs are suposed to help us get on our feet while we may or may not pursue bigger things but, HA! It really doesn’t. Especially since the job market is so finiky and teeters this way and that you’ll be hard pressed to grow from there or get any where else.
I have been working two jobs for nearing a year now and I honestly have nothing to show for it. Its really only suporting my car,gas and food. But what about a nice cheap aparment? No inflation has fucked that up as well.
When you can’t get a cheap apartment in even the questionable side of town without having to room with 2 or more people it should raise another red flag.
It shouldn’t be a requirement to bunk with other people Especially if you still work two jobs.
We millennials literally have to stay at home longer or work so much harder to start nesting and move away from home. I paused school so I can make sure I don’t have an excuse to work only 1 job and I fucking hate it.
I MISS SCHOOL GUYS I seriously do! But with me being 22 and no where near flying the nest I AM FORCED TO!
How long will they keep inflating the cost of everything untill they stop. Probably when the working class is too poor to even afford their latest goddamn phone or TV.
Anyway Fuck life. Fuck inflation. Fuck minim wage. Fuck it all man.
I wake up complete the puzzle then reset my alarm to go off nearly 30 minutes later. Wake up again and rush out the house barely realizing what I’m even doing.
I am a millennial and It really sucks.
My parents are no longer “well-to-do” so now I have to pick up the slack for myself. I’m not saying I have to help them pay bills no way thank goodness. I mean I can’t stay home anymore.
I have to work two shitty paying jobs to save up then move out.
“Oh well why can’t u just stay home. Its much easier that way.”
Because I share a living room with two family members. Witg me being a huge introvert who loves her space; these past 6 months have taken its toll on my mental stability.It has been steadily dwindling because the lack of proper sleep and time to self. I need space I can call my own to heal and I don’t have that.
I work two jobs so I can get away. I stress myself two LOW-PAYING jobs as a 22 year old “adult?”. because it seems any other higher paying job (9-10) have managers that like to shit on you for breakfast lunch, and dinner; you know… Which ever random shift they’ve given you that day.
“DONT KILL ANYONE!” I say to myself hahaha. Its just another day, only a couple dollars extra.
I have been near severely depressed this past month especially these past few weeks. I was in a car accident a few weeks ago and have been having issues with getting a rental; ontop of that Ive had 2 jobs to get to. Luckily… Not so lucky the following Tuesday and Wednesday were the last two days I worked till my vacation… What a total bust right? I ended up spending that time I despreatly needed worrying and dealing with the typical aftermath car crash. (I’m okay BTW).
Why is it so hard for majority of people to keep friendships??! Its like the younger portion of Gen-y don’t understand what being a friend means. They don’t understand the concept of conversation. Frankly I don’t give a fuck about people who say they can go months without that interaction and still come back. SHIT happens u know? An old fashioned call here and there seems to be out of the deal now.
Depression is so much more than just being sad over spilt milk, its like a literal dark hole u can’t keep a grip on. It causes a person to fall almost silent until its too late. I bring this up because it ties into my second thought up there about friends. I’ve really NEEDED friends lately. SHAMELESSLY, needed them because there is only so much someone can keep to themself. I’m glad I have a few friends who still ask me from time to time how i am doing ( I do the same)
Guess i just wanted to say don’t give up on that weekly or biweekly catch up. Being a fresh adult is hard… No matter the age we all need companionship. 😘